a wedding…

I had every intention, how ever loosely held, to journal the process of all the making for my daughter's wedding…

The wedding is precisely 18 days away. Is it too late? I have taken photos - poor quality and not as many as I would have liked or as pretty as I would have liked. When the creating challenge is great, I have a tendency to tuck myself away and live inside my mess for a time, internal and external. The task of photographing the process does not come naturally to me - not even a smidge. Photographs are narrators of a story - a whole other creative process that my being simply cannot navigate when engrossed in another task or the ‘subject’ in.

For starters, I am rarely ‘dressed’, nor is my home remotely stylized - I live in a renovation, it is not fun (actually, sometimes it is fun). Subfloors cannot be cleaned well and everything is nowhere - meaning, nothing truly has its PLACE. I know I know - I can hear the exasperation and affirmations already - the same I would tell you if I heard the same woes coming from your mouth. Show the mess! Come as you are! Blah blah… actually I completely agree.

So maybe that is NOT the first hurdle, I could go all therapist on you and say it is MINDSET, but I won’t this time.

The first thing is most likely the SYSTEMS. They are the same reason I do not blog regularly, even if I routinely regret/wish I did, or why I still do not ‘lift weights’ on the regular when my body is clearly letting me know it is a MUST.

Quite simply, I am being a WHOLE LOTTA THINGS - stretched thin and the cracks resembling crevices, no matter how hard I strain to hold it together.

I am afraid, the supports need a little attention and clarity. Some buffing and tuning before I can enjoy the rhythm of the SYSTEMS.

I write this as I prepare to launch myself headlong into another day with a very full to-do list, almost laughably a wish list at this point. Some of the tasks are small, others rather large… and all equally exciting. The real reason I am everywhere all the time and systems are ignored… I am SO DELIGHTED with all the details - to the point of exhaustion. Life would be so much easier to edit if I disliked more things.

Here are some snapshots from the last few months… to date I have made dozens upon dozens of paper flowers, roughly 1600 cookies and 34 cakes, two wedding dresses (I will explain another time), and so many more little details.

For now… CHEERS to creative chaos and all the messes, inside and out!